December 31, 2008

Gabriel's Last Spinal Tap!!



Sitting here with you
On the last day
Of this procedure
I remember

The first day
Before it all began
A bone marrow was needed
I rememeber

The doctors said,
"We usually don't allow parents in the procedure room"
But I went with you anyway
I remember

I bent over the bed
Hearing your cries
Fighting the immobilzing anesthesia
I remember

My heart aching
I had to be strong for you
I held you as best I could
I remember

Whispering in your ear
"Mommy's here"
"You are doing so good"
I remember

You calmed by voice
The doctors proceeded
Getting as much bone marrow fluid
As they could
I rememeber

The doctors and nurses becoming shadows
Just you and I
As I sang to you a lullabye
I remember

You moaning with me
At 13 months old
This is how we made it through
The day before it all began

I remember.....

Written by Angela Caldwell
December 31, 2008
Copyright © 2008 by Angela Caldwell